Unscheduled Program Interuption…

I was doing so good there for a while.  Posts a few times a week… commenting on everyone’s posts even if it was a day or two late…  I was really enjoying being back into Xanga and all that entails. 

And then this week happened.

I have been forced to take an unexpected and unplanned Xanga hiatus.  I don’t know when it will end… but it will!

There is a superstition among military wives that says that when your husband deploys anything that can go wrong WILL!  It’s true…  his last deployment proved true… HERE… and this one is shaping up to prove it as well.

Quick run down. 

Isaac has a double ear infection.  I found out Monday but for days before that (if not a week) he wasn’t sleeping, he was super fussy, and started hitting.  I chalked it up to Ryan being gone and just set out to survive it…  Then Friday afternoon he stared tugging at his ears.  Unfortunately the medical world closes up shop at about 3pm on Friday around here… I called at 7am on Monday.  He’s now on meds but struggling to get them down (I’m running over to the pharmacy when he wakes up to see if they can flavor it a little more so it goes down a bit easier.) I’m hoping he’s on the mend and life can get back to normal…

Spock had a lump on his shoulder from his chip implant when we first got him.  It’s been getting bigger slowly but this past few weeks it’s just exploded and last week I noticed some hair loss on the area and that he was starting to be bothered by it.  I took him in on Monday after Isaac’s appointment and in a lighting fast moment… My dog was having emergency surgery to remove his tumor and would have to overnight at the clinic.  $224.68 later he’s back home on antibiotics and mending well.

Last night at midnight Isaac woke up screaming.  I ran in there with a bottle of milk and left the door open.  Spock snuck down the hall and out his doggy door… About three minutes later I smelled something I am WAY more familiar with than I want to me.  I grabbed the baby and ran down the hall just in time to head him off from getting back in the house.  He had gotten SKUNKED!  I got Isaac to go back to sleep and chose to just leave Spock out for the night because the skunk was still in the yard and I was not going out there and getting skunked myself!

So I was up at the crack of dawn washing my dog… Today I have to clean the house from stem to stern and try to get this stench out of here because I have about 10 hours before my mom and dad roll into town! 

They will be here for three or four days and then we are loading up and leaving for Phoenix and then Prescott Arizona.  I’ll be glad to say goodbye to Del Rio for the next 5 months but sad to leave the friends I’ve finally made and the church I love behind.  Life is going to be crazy for the next few weeks so I don’t know exactly how long this hiatus will last… but I will be back!!!


The Koffee Klatch Challenge #2

The_Koffee_Klatch  challenge #2

Write a letter to your first love

You don’t have to name names, although feel free if you want to!   And it doesn’t have to be a person…for all we know, your first love was ice cream!  Just take it where ever you want it to go, we’ll read it!

If you want to participate or read more entries on this subject come on over to The_Koffee_Klatch!


I only had to think about this for a micro second.  I then stopped and thought long and hard, was this the direction I wanted to take? It turns out that the micro second was plenty of time. 

I am well aware that this is going to sound sappy and idealistic… It’s also going to sound like I’m a naive baby that hasn’t lived any real life…  Oh I have… I truly have…  However in this area of my life I do have a blessing… or at least I choose to make it one!

So without further ado…

My love story is a fairytale in motion…  My first love was and is the man I married… though he wasn’t exactly a man back then!


Dear Ryan Laube,

I’m seven and I have lost my heart to you completely…   I have known you my whole life and tonight at church you stole my heart with a comment about the wedding we would have one day.  I can’t wait to marry you and live happily ever after.

I’m thirteen and you still hold my heart.  There has never been anyone else and my heart is breaking.  My family is leaving the church and I won’t see you anymore.  Don’t forget me?

I’m 17 and dating a great guy.  You are here and I see you across the room, just back from basic training standing proud in your dress blues, and in this moment I know that if you would just smile at me and hold out your hand like you did all those years ago I would walk away from him forever to be by your side.   But you don’t.

I’m 19…  He’s gone and my heart is broken… I’ve never forgotten you but you’ve been so far out of reach for so long that when we are thrown together unexpectedly the sight of you sends a shock into my very soul.  In that moment I know that I am yours and you are mine… even if you don’t yet.   I can’t wait to marry you and live happily ever after.


Later that year I did marry you… I walked down the aisle with my eyes fixed on yours and we ran boldly into the future together…


It’s been 11 years and I’ve never looked back.  It is a blessing I do not take lightly to be living my happily ever after with you.  Our life together is beautiful and though it has had moments of pain and tragedy and times of not so ‘happily ever after’ I wouldn’t’t change a thing.  I would not miss a moment we have had together or a moment of our life to come…

Eleven years have passed since the day we married… 23 years have passed since the day I knew you would be the boy I loved forever.  I’m still that girl…


you’re still that boy…


and yet we are so much more… with a boy of our own.

Ryan & Courtney-61

You are far away from me today as I sit and write this letter. 


It will be a long while before I see your face again… and yet I know that just as our love survived all the little separations of our youth and all the separations that have come in the years in between, it will survive this one… and grow.

Ryan & Courtney-24

You hold my heart as you always have. 

Ryan & Courtney-46  

From your first love,

Courtney Laube


He’s gone… and my dog almost died today!

He’s gone… I’m sure you guessed from some of the things I’ve said here and there.  No happily married woman with her husband home beside her sits around and watches House Hunters International and sappy romance movies into the wee small hours…  But I believe strongly in OPSEC and so I couldn’t say anything… Today I can.

I just received a message from Ryan (I was changing Isaac’s diaper and missed his call) and he has reached his final destination.  All I can tell you is that he’s now in Afghanistan and that it will be some time before he has access to regular communication.  That’s pretty much all I can tell you… that’s pretty much all I’ll ever be able to say…  The next thing you’ll hear from me on this subject will probably be the news that he’s home sometime around 6-7 months from now.  I can say that I crave your prayers for his protection over the next six months.  He’s not safe… but he’s in God’s hands…

This means that Isaac and I are getting ready to move back home to Phoenix.  I have a few more treatments and then I’m free to go.  As it now stands my Mom and Dad will arrive on the 21st and spend a few days helping me get everything in order to leave for six months and then I’ll be off.  We will spend a day or two in Phoenix and then we’ll be off for the cabin in Prescott where I will spend the majority of my time.  (Don’t worry family I’m going to come down for extended weekends so that I have time to spend with everyone!)  It should be a nice experience for Isaac and I.  The weather there is much cooler and there are a lot of fun things to do outdoors which will be so good for Isaac.  I’m excited!

Now a fun story about Spock to make this email a little more interesting….

Spock almost died today.  My father would have been “In Search of Spock” (har har) when he arrived here in a few weeks because this dog was almost buried out in the desert somewhere…  Don’t worry I’ve cooled down but it was a near miss…  (Okay okay not really I love him too much but goodness was I mad!)

I woke up at 6am and took my shower… as I do every morning.  I then went about my day and did my chores, had my breakfast, and spent some time online.  Isaac slept in so I got a few more chores in and on my rounds happened to peek into the guest room.

Now let me take a moment to say that a few weeks ago my guest room was the black hole of my home.  Everything I didn’t have time to deal with was thrown in there along with tons of debris from Ryan’s deployment preparations… in fact I have a picture!


It gives me heart palpitations just looking at this picture… BUT over the past few weeks I slowly and steadily cleared it out.  Everything got taken care of and put in it’s place and in the week since Ryan has been gone it has become it’s perfect beautiful welcoming self. 

Two days ago I washed the sheets and remade the bed, fluffed up the pillows and got everything ready for mom and dad to be here in a little while… 

Okay back to this morning…

I peeked into the guest room and almost screamed! 

The animal that inhabits my home had ripped open two bed pillows and thrown the stuffing everywhere… thank heaven I don’t have feather pillows… He tore the blanket to shreds and pulled off all the sheets… He piled most of this mess in the dead center of the guest bed and then proceeded to PEE ALL OVER THE MESS!

After my vision came back from red I started to clean up the mess and found that the pee had not only saturated the mess but had also gone through the (supposedly) waterproof mattress pad and into the very expensive Temperpedic foam mattress topper!!!!  I clenched my jaw and set about cleaning that as well… then I pulled it back only to find that the pee had soaked through the topper and into the mattress!!!

Yes the dog is alive… I hope I got the guest bed cleaned and will take the next few weeks to air it out and hope for the best… and again… yes the dog is alive.

Have I told you lately just how much I hate puppies?

Okay “funny” story over… keep Ryan in your prayers and I’ll let you know what I can when I can. 


Psalm 91

Today I am praying this Psalm over Ryan’s life.  Join me?


Psalm 91

Safety of Abiding in the Presence of God

1 He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty. 
2 I will say of the Lord, “He is my refuge and my fortress; My God, in Him I will trust.” 
3 Surely He shall deliver you from the snare of the fowler And from the perilous pestilence. 
4 He shall cover you with His feathers, And under His wings you shall take refuge; His truth shall be your shield and buckler. 
5 You shall not be afraid of the terror by night, Nor of the arrow that flies by day,
6  Nor of the destruction that lays waste at noonday. 
7 A thousand may fall at your side, And ten thousand at your right hand; But it shall not come near you.
8  Only with your eyes shall you look, And see the reward of the wicked.
9  Because you have made the Lord, who is my refuge, Even the Most High, your dwelling place,
10  No evil shall befall you, Nor shall any plague come near your dwelling;
11  For He shall give His angels charge over you, To keep you  in all your ways.
12  In their hands they shall bear you up, Lest you dash your foot against a stone.
13  You shall tread upon the lion and the cobra, The young lion and the serpent you shall trample underfoot.

14  “Because he has set his love upon Me, therefore I will deliver him; I will set him on high, because he has known My name.
15  He shall call upon Me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble; I will deliver him and honor him.
16  With long life I will satisfy him, And show him My salvation.”