Terrible~Aweful~Really Bad SMELL!

10:30pm From Out on the Border

About an hour ago my dog, Gandalf… no wait… let me remind you about Gandalf first.

He’s a Newfi mix.  This means he weights 110 pounds.  He is a water dog with an extremely thick and mostly waterproof coat.  He is overly friendly and thinks he’s a giant lapdog… 


Thanks to Kris (BigToePeople) we have some awesome skunk shampoo (Read that we called and went over to pick it up at 9pm) so at the moment he’s on the back patio getting a freezing cold bath in the dark.

I honestly don’t know who I feel the most sorry for… Gandalf, who is foaming at the mouth and whining in pain, or Ryan, who is out there freezing with his eyes burning at the smell. 

My poor boys! 

(Feel bad for me too…  this is NOT easy on my queasy stomach.)

My house smells…  *SHUDDER*  There are no words…  I have every single candle I could find burning, my plug-ins are newly charged, I have the room spray out and I even have the dryer running with extra fabric sheets… 

To top all of this off… we just found out yesterday that my in-laws are coming here for Thanksgiving. 

So, in short, I have two days to get my dog and my house smelling normal, get the guest quarters ready, and cook a huge dinner! 

Please God take away the queasy for just a few days!  🙂

So tonight be thankful if you are snuggling down into your nice warm bed and breathing deeply of your clean fresh air!




Good morning,

I can’t believe it’s been almost a week since my last…  The days are just spinning away from me in a fog of sleep and sickness…

First of all I would like to make it very clear that I AM NOT COMPLAINING! 

I have never in my life been thrilled to be sick but honestly after 9 years of infertility, and 3 heartbreaking losses I find great comfort in being so sick and so tired!  Every normal sign of pregnancy is to be greatly rejoiced in and I AM. 

BUT…  I have never felt this sick in my whole life.  For almost a solid month now (beginning with my time in Phoenix) my life has consisted of being so tired that my one goal for the whole day is to get a shower and be presentable before Ryan comes home from work.  (The sad thing is I don’t always succeed!)  To be honest I’m sleeping about 9 hours a night and napping on the couch during the day for 3 or 4 hours on and off.  I’m exhausted!  Poor Ryan has had to really pick up my slack around here… not so much because I’m tired but because every time I stand up I start dry heaving…

Prepare for a little too much information.  Most, if not all, of you know that I had a Ruen Y Gastric Bypass Surgery almost 5 years ago now.  One peculiar side effect that I had not really anticipated is that I CAN’T THROW UP!  I know it’s gross but I’m just going to give you the physical reasons why.  I don’t have a normal stomach anymore… oh my original stomach is still there but it’s connected to my digestive system in a much different way now.  As a result there is literally no way for me to throw up unless I’ve eaten in the last 20 to 30 minutes, I can’t even get bile.  This mean that when I get so queasy that I just can’t ‘hold it down’ anymore I run to a sink or toilet just like anyone else… I heave and heave and pop blood vessels in my face… my eyes and nose run… I can’t breath… ect.  BUT it doesn’t help.  There isn’t a moment of relief.  After all is said and done I’m just as queasy as ever.  So all that to say that if I’m up I’m heaving and if I’m down I’m sleeping. 

The VERY good news in all of that is this…  I never have to brush my teeth a second time!  (Gross I know) Also I don’t have to worry about not getting enough nutrition since I’m not um… losing anything I’m eating.

So all of that to say this.  I miss you guys!  I read all your comments and intend to comment back, I try to keep up on your posts but to be honest I’m so worn out between the regular exhaustion and the physical toll that dry heaving all day long takes on my body that being on here is just too much work.  Other than a few minutes on Facebook in the evenings when the symptoms start to let up just to make sure my family has a little news from me, I’m not on much.  I think about writing almost every day.  I think about things to write and pictures to share and I have even had a number of crazy dreams about some of you and things I want to write about but in reality I come every day and think “one more day won’t make that much of a difference I’ll just write tomorrow” and then a week has passed again.

So, please forgive me for my absence… it seems as if Xanga is always the thing to give… I MISS IT!  I miss writing, I miss interacting with all of you, I miss YOU! 

On a happier note… I’m really hoping to feel better soon.  I really want to cook a good Thanksgiving dinner for Ryan and I… I want to decorate the house for Christmas right after dinner and then I want to spend that extended weekend cleaning out the office and turning that room into a nursery!  So hopefully I’ll be back in no time with plenty to share… 

All my love and thoughts and prayers, I promise I’m with you in spirit if nothing else at the moment,


 P.S.  There were two things I shared on Facebook that I didn’t here and I would like to. 

1) Ryan got to march in the Veteran’s Day Parade here in town yesterday.  He said it was a great experience.  There were sections of active duty military, tons of retired Veterans, ROTC with a float, old cars that carried the towns big wigs, three marching bands and the whole kit and caboodle.  They had a ceremony at exactly 11am at the end of the parade.  He said it was a great experience.

I was supposed to go, but I was feeling so sick yesterday morning… I tried to get ready and just couldn’t in time so I missed it.  I’m in mourning because I wanted so badly to take pictures!  He promised me that he’ll volunteer for next year.  That way I can hightail it out there with our almost 6 month old baby in a stroller and we can watch daddy march and wave our little flags and I’ll get some great pictures!

2)  I have to brag for five seconds.  I made two Pumpkin Cheesecakes for the office on Tuesday.  (Up and baking for an hour was an adventure let me tell you!) They were having an auction to raise money for the squadron functions coming up.  My two cheesecakes brought in $70 bucks!  I was shocked!!!  The entire auction brought in $680 bucks.  What a fundraiser!!!

And here’s one thing I didn’t say on Facebook.  Remember before I left for Phoenix?  I cooked for weeks and filled the freezer for Ryan?  I have never in my life been so grateful for my OCD!!!  I’ve only had to cook dinner once since I’ve been home there was so much food.  Poor Ryan… he’s got to be getting sick of what’s in there by now!!!

The Laubester Revealed

Good Afternoon!

I had my first prenatal visit this afternoon.  We were a little scared going into it.   The last time I had a prenatal visit we found out that our almost 7 week old baby had died in utero at five weeks and I had a miscarriage within days of that appointment.  So needless to say the past memories of these appointments all hold heartache and we were apprehensive.

Today wiped every past appointment clean… I think it might have been one of the very best days of my life!

We walked in and waited anxiously for my name to be called.  I was asked into an office where I filled out all the required paperwork to see my new doctor and all the time I was scared to death that this would be my only appointment.  When they finally called us back I spent about 10 minutes going over my medical history with the nurse and explaining about my previous experience with fertility doctors and my 3 miscarriages.  Then my new doctor came in.  I’ll just take a moment to say that I love him and all of his office staff!  It was a lovely experience all around and that makes me so happy!

After a few questions and a little more background my Dr. decided that I really needed to have an ultrasound to make sure everything was okay and to get a, once and for all, accurate time frame for this pregnancy.  I was so excited!  I just knew that seeing my baby and knowing for sure that everything was okay would be a huge relief.

So they led us back to the sonogram room and I experienced the kind of sonogram you see in the movies!  It was so surreal!  From the darkened lights to the ice cold gel on my stomach it was exactly like every movie portrays it… and then our miracle happened.

There on the screen across from us was our baby!  


 Here’s a version with parts labeled so you can see our little Laubester more clearly!

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It was an amazing experience.  As I was laying there while the Dr. took measurements we could actually see the baby waving it’s little arms and legs around!  Then the Dr. asked us the best question… 

“Do you want to hear the heartbeat?”

We both nodded yes and the room was filled with the sound of our baby’s heartbeat.  Racing away at 175 beats per minute.  It was one of the most profound moments of my life.  Ryan and I were struggling to not just break down in tears at the very sound. 

Here is one last picture.  As you can see I’m a little ahead of what was originally thought.  I measure exactly 10 weeks today which makes my due date June 4th of 2010.  That means my first trimester ends on the 25th of November (Crazy that’s only 19 days!) and we’ll be able to see if this little Laubester is a boy or a girl on the 15th of January! 


See the squiggles on the bottom of the picture?  That’s the baby’s heartbeat! 

Thank you each and every one of you for your prayers for my and this baby’s health.  Ryan and I can feel your prayers daily.  Even though we were so nervous today going into this appointment there was an unexplainable underlying peace… We can’t wait to share this journey with you!

Ryan and Courtney


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Base Shooting

At 1:30pm CT there was a shooting on base at Ft. Hood here in TX. 

The information is still coming in but currently they believe there are three armed gunmen… one in custody. 

The current report says that the gunmen were in fatigues but they don’t know if they were military or civilian.

There have been shootings at the Howze Theater, the Soldier Readiness Center where there was apparently a graduation ceremony going on, and at the PX.  At the moment the casualty report says 7 dead and 20 wounded. 

Please just keep them in your prayers as they try to get this situation under control. 

I know three women from here on Xanga that are stationed there with their families.  Ladies please know that you are in my prayers as well as the safety of your families. 

God be with them.


Picture Perfect!

Good morning!  er… Afternoon!

While I was in Phoenix I didn’t get to spend a lot of time with my youngest sister and her two kiddos.  I thought I was sick so I stayed away not wanting to get the kids sick. 

I was sad to miss out on time with my niece and nephew…  especially since I had never met my new little nephew, Dylan Parker!

Fortunately once I found out I was pregnant I had one last chance to do a quick photo shoot!  So here he is!

Dylan Parker Woodard born August 8th 2009.

What a chunk!


He thought the flash on my camera was funny! 


His nursery is done in monkeys so we sat him up with his buddy.


Here he is with daddy.


And of course mommy is the funniest person in the world.


Savannah woke up from her nap and had to have her ‘Broder kisses!”


Don’t you just love his shirt?  “New to the herd”


Hey mom and dad!


 Monkey and pal.


Rock Stars!


 I told you… Mommy can always get a laugh!


  What a cutie pie.


 I think mommy and daddy agree…


This has to be one of my very favorite baby pictures I’ve ever taken.  What a character!  So fun!!!


 It was so much fun meeting him and getting to know him and his little personality.  I also really enjoyed spending more time with Savannah.  There is something that warms the heart big time when your not quite two year old niece looks at you after you pick up her dropped crayon and says in a perfectly clear little voice…

“Tank ou At Corkey.”  🙂

It was a blast!  I have tons of pictures to share another day because, of course, I was there to witness the birth of my newest nephew Aaron Isaac… but that will have to wait for another day.


In home front news, I’m doing good.  I’m a little over 9 weeks pregnant.  I’m still feeling sick and tired which is great!  My first doctor’s appointment is on Friday of this week.  I’ll have more news for you then!

Until later,