My sister asked me a question the other day and it got me thinking. I sometimes don’t realize that there are many things I don’t really talk about and this is one of them.
My sister asked, “Are you nervous to see Ryan again? Do you have those first date jitters since it’s been so long?”
My answer is yes! That is exactly how I feel…
Let me try to nudge you into my shoes for a minute so you can see where I’m coming from.
For those of you that are married imagine what it would be like to have no contact with your spouse for six months… No hugging, no kissing, no other funny buisness! No casual touch when he walks by, no holding hands, no one brushing back your hair, no one to listen to you ramble on about your boring life or listen to you laugh.
Today pay attention, how often do you and your husband touch? How often do you speak or just take notice that you’re not alone in the room?
Imagine you have six months of solitary existence with those things gone from your life and then answer me this.
Would you be nervous? Would you have doubts in your head that you still remember what it’s like to kiss your husband? Would you have doubts that you even remember how?
The funny thing is that I always do. I panic for days ahead of his return that I won’t remember how!
(Now I have to say before I get a lot of strange instructional comments that I know that I know how, it’s a little hard to forget! I think I just close off that part of myself so that I don’t go nuts while he’s away.)
It’s funny that I don’t worry about anything else… I just get wiggy over that first kiss!
In fact, it feels a lot like the nervous anxiety before your actual first kiss!
So YES I’m nervous and excited! AND, I fully believe that I’ve discovered the secret to a GREAT marriage!
You know what they say, “Absence makes the heart grow fonder!”
For us at least it’s true!
Well, I’m off to finish up my preparations! I’ll be back when he’s home!