Good Evening Xangaland!

I came to Prescott to escape the heat and over crowded air of Phoenix, and what I have found here is far beyond what I had expected to find…. Peace, gentle and complete peace. It has been simply beautiful here this last five days… breezy, quiet, and in the mid to low seventies. Who could ask for better?

The first day was spent putting the cabin in order and unpacking…. Then that evening I sat and crocheted and watched a movie only to be interrupted by a fabulous fireworks display in the valley that is perfectly overlooked from the porch of the cabin… I sat in the dark and watched the fireworks with my boys by my side. It was a perfect opening to this week.

On Saturday I got a very welcomed phone call from my cousin Matthew and his family. They were up here at their cabin for the weekend and wanted me to bring to boys up and have dinner with them… So we got in the car and hit the road for Matt’s cabin. We got there at 2pm and I didn’t get back until 2am! It was splendid to spend that little bit of unexpected time with them before we go overseas… We spent the time playing Rook and Balderdash and just talking! I had such a wonderful time.

Sunday was a day of reading and relaxing…

Monday has been my favorite day so far. Apparently I timed this perfectly without intending to. I don’t know if I have ever mentioned this but this cabin is one of the fifty or so on the grounds of the Assembly of God Campground for Arizona. And yesterday was the first day of the first camp of the summer. I sat here with all my doors and windows open and listened to the kids play. Then when dusk settled over the camp the kids all filed into the chapel which is just at the bottom of the hill this cabin sits atop, and proceeded to have church. I can not even describe to you how awesome of an evening it was. To sit up here in the dark hearing this group of kids raise their voices in praise and worship and later in fervent prayers…

Here is a picture of the tabernacle from the porch of the cabin… you can see it’s not that far away!


What an amazing gift to be present for the mountain top experience of a group of young Christians… from the top of my own little mountain top…

Today has been more of the same… walking the boys and listening to the kids play… today they have set up a water park in the grass. LOL It is a bunch of those blow up things… a huge slip and slide and a water slide…. We certainly didn’t have those when I went to camp as a kid. LOL But that’s perfectly okay with me as I hate being in a bathing suit!

Here is a picture of the blow up water slides.


So how am I getting online you may ask? Well in my walk today I found that just down at the bottom of my driveway there is another small driveway… I went down it today for the first time in the 8 years my parents have owned this cabin… only to find that it leads nowhere but that if you keep on going up onto the rocky hillside there is, lo and behold, a small walking path, long forgotten with benches and flower beds long gone wild. At the end of this little path is a boulder that has a perfectly flat top and is shaded by another large boulder to the South… as I was sitting there I pulled out my hotspot finder, just because, and amazingly in this small patch of wild beauty tucked away in the heart of this campground there is a hotspot! LOL Must be someone at the bottom of the hill but in short… here I am.

Just for fun here are a few pictures of the cabin…

From the bottom of the driveway.


From the porch… this is the little yard at the foot of the cabin… You can’t really tell from these pictures but it makes a perfect little flat area for the dogs to play while I read in the afternoon.


Here is a picture of the kitchen…


Here is a picture of the little family room and the blue doors are the exit to the porch…


Can you see that picture under the clock? It says

Padner, yo’re welcome
To such as we’ve got-
The leaks in the roof-
An’ the beans in the pot-
The butter that’s soft-
An’ the bunks that are hard-
The weeks that are growin’
All over the yard
Get up when yo’re ready
Be plumb at your ease-
Don’t worry ‘bout us
Just do as yuh please-
Yuh don’t have to thank us-
Or laff at our jokes-
Sit deep – an’ come often-
Yo’re one of the folks.

Yep that just about sums this little place up. I love it… Couldn’t have done better thing than come here for this time with my boys.

Only two weeks until I go to see Ryan… Oh and to answer your question…. Yes I’ll be driving him home with me. The Air Force will pay for the trip home instead of a plane ticket… so the total cost of this trip will be about 100 dollars! Not bad at all, especially when you consider I have to save every penny… still have to come up with the money to ship the boys over to Germany… yikes!!!

Hope all is well with all of you.


   Goodbye Xangaland!

I’m off for nine days in the cool pines with my boys…


This is my parent’s cabin at the top of the hill.

In the event that a wireless network is available I’ll try to come around.

In any case I will be letting the solitude and the peace inspire me to write and to study and to just breath…


There are so many things I need to get out of my head and on to paper… 75% of them aren’t going to even be fit to read for they won’t make sense but I must clean out this brain of mine… There is simply so much going on in my life…

On top of all of that I’ve been kicking around the idea of writing a book based on my two short stories found in the left hand collum called Battle Ready and A Dream, A Calling… We’ll see where it takes me.

Until then…




Did anyone notice I posted this at 2am?  and then I couldn’t fall asleep until 3am… I’m insane!!!  Actually it’s Ryan being gone… it always, without fail, throws my sleep schedule to the wind… Just bumping this up to a normal day entry!

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Good Morning Xangaland!

Well I’m sorry to say that I totally bummed out on my dad… we worked on it a little bit and it wasn’t working so I left him to putter with it (since he said he didn’t need me) and went shopping with my mom. There is some girly girl in my yet. Lol

I’m afraid I mistakenly mislead you all.  When I said inventing I meant trying to improve upon a well known design… these things are not by any stretch of the imagination new… so any money made on the deal would simply be saving money on gas… which in this day and age could amount to a considerable amount…lol.

All said and done we have given up and ordered a converter from eBay which they sell for about 100.00 I’ll let you know if it works…

I leave for the cabin tomorrow morning until June 3rd… I don’t know if I ever told you guys but I did have to buy a laptop for Ryan so I have full use of it until he comes home (insert evil little grin here) I will be taking it up to the cabin but whether or not I can find a hotspot to get online with is another matter but rest assured that I will try! I’m really excited to go… it will be a good time to catch up on some much needed study and just spend some quality time with my boys… Granted it will be warm there but I’ll take 88 degrees with a swamp cooler over the 105 it’s already reaching here in the land of perpetual sunshine. LOL

I also have some wonderful news (for me at least) I will be going to Texas to see Ryan. I leave the 15th of June and will be driving straight into San Antonio (15 hours plus I lose 2 going that direction so it’s going to be long!) I will get to spend 5 full days with him and then on the sixth day I’ll get to attend his graduation. I’m really excited about this. Ryan has been in the AF for over 8 years now and has gone through 4 graduations not including this one and I have never been able to attend any of them… I don’t even have pictures of any of them. So I will get to witness the beginning of this new chapter in his career, and in our lives.

So anyway over the weekend that I’m there we are going to see X3 since we promised each other we would wait until we could see it together and then we are going to go to Sea World because apparently admission to an active duty member and one dependent is free for the summer and neither of us has been to Sea World since we were kids. We also just found out that I’ll be able to stay in his dorm room with him because technically it is a hotel room that he’s paying for out of his Per Diem… so that will save us a ton of money… and I’m the only NCO wife in his class that hasn’t visited yet so I wouldn’t want to disappoint!

I’m actually really excited about the road trip part of this too… I haven’t been out of state, other than California since we were married so I figured this would be a good time to take a trip as my next one will be half a world away. I’m excited too about spending some time alone with him before we go, it will be fun to just relax like we haven’t been able to do in months because of the move and living with my parents… and like I’m sure we won’t be able to for months to come what with moving across the world and trying to get settled in…

I should also tell you that our paper orders came in for Germany so the process will begin to really move from now on… I can’t believe how quickly all of this is moving.

Well that’s about all I can think of… I think it’s enough for only being gone a day. LOL

Hope all of you have a good week if I’m not able to come back.

Good Morning Xangaland!

Want to hear something crazy?

My dad and I are in the process of building/inventing a hydrogen converter for his truck… (To be fair it’s his idea I’m just helping him get it all together)

Supposedly if you do it right you can increase the gas milage by 50 to 100% per gallon!  Now who couldn’t use that in this day and age?  We’ll see if it works… We spent most of Sunday afternoon building the actual converter and today we have to test it.  If it functions then we will begin hooking it up to the actual fuel system and then…

We shall see….

So that is how I’ll spend my day!  Could I be any more of a tom boy?

Why does this make me a tom boy you may ask?

Because I not only understand this whole thing but I really enjoy it!

Have a good day my friends.


Good evening Xangaland!

Fair warning… This post is going to have a ton of pictures in it since there is just so much to catch up on…  as always just click the pictures to make them bigger.

First of all I should address the new look here. I have had the same look since I signed up for Xanga in the fall of 2004. I loved it and it fit me but I felt the need to have a new look to usher in this new chapter in my life that is about to begin.

Things have been so much busier than I ever anticipated them being over the last few weeks. I have been spending as much time with my family as I can, it’s funny how it’s just starting to hit me how long three years without them will be.


Ryan is doing really well in his schooling in San Antonio…. He is one of the top students in his class and is really enjoying the work there. He is getting really excited about our new duty station and his new squadron. Everyone says that when you are living overseas your shop is like your family and that is deffinatly proving true. Already the guys from Ryan’s new shop have made plans to pick us and our dogs up at the airport in all of their private vehicles… The commander’s wife has already asked for my name and info (I won’t lie that scares me a bit.) They have all gone out of their way to send us as much info as they can.  Everything has been going smoothly.


I found some pictures of the base housing on the Bittburg Annex which is where we will be living. We were originally told that the housing was a five hundred square foot two bedroom one bathroom apartment… we are just now finding out that it is actually about 1100 square feet and has a separate laundry room and eating area. It won’t be huge but compared to what we had been counting on it will be a palace!

Here are the pictures of one of the buildings on base housing… Each building is split into four sections with an apartment on each floor. So there are 16 in each building. The only thing that looks like it will be a problem is the fact that there is only one uncovered fully exposed parking spot. Why are there garages in Phoenix where it never snows or rains but none in Spangdahlem where it does both…. Frequently? Oh well.

This first picture is of one of the buildings… if I understand correctly where the balcony splits is the seperation of one apartment from another and they go back into the building… so there are four apartments and four floors.


Tiffandara asked me if I know what floor we’ll be on and the answer is yes I do.  Standard proceedure is to give us ground floor because of the dogs and right now it does not increase the wait time so that will be great.


Another view of the building.


Going down the street…. see what I mean about parking?



I had a wonderful time in Prescott, with Emily and my boys.

Here are some pictures of the trip.

Me and the boys enjoying some summer sun.


What mom, what are you looking out.


Of course I didn’t get a long shot but I’m sitting on a HUGE boulder at the edge of the property.  The side behind me is a sheer drop.  So on top of the world!


Me and Yoda hanging out on the porch.


Me sitting on a rock at the foot of the cabin… see it up there behind me.


 Oh scuse me coming through!


Cool summer breezes on the porch in the afternoon.


Can you see me mom?  Yoda hiding in plain sight.  If it wasn’t for that harness….


But then he couldn’t get down so brother to the rescue.


Me hanging out with my boy.


Emily’s favorite picture from the trip… lol..  Such a corny pose!


 Me looking 30ish and like a mother of three…lol  someday… I hope.


If you ever needed proof that older does count as bigger here it is.  And of course Gandalf is asking me why I sicked Yoda on him.


Me and the guys… look at my arms… it’s a trick of the light but I look buff!!!


LOL my model head shot.      


This one is my favorite of me and my boys… I can’t wait to be in a home of our own again (small though it may be) where we can be together as the little family we are.


I had so much fun that I will be going back there for nine days. I’ll be leaving on May 26th and returning on June 3rd. Just me and my boys, relaxing and enjoying each others company. When I come home from Prescott I will have 18 days until Ryan comes home and then it will be a short 14 days until we pack up the cars and start the drive to California. Just two days later Ryan and I will be on a plane crossing half the world to our new home. It’s amazing how quickly everything flies by when something so big is looming on the horizon. I still can’t believe how fast this is all moving.


In other news… My Aunt Sue and her family is settled into the house on Tierra Buena… Everything is going really good with them and for them. I’m so relieved to have found such wonderful renters to take care of my home.


I am settled into my parent’s house and enjoying the time I get to spend with them. I will admit it is very strange. I have not been alone in the house once since I moved here and that is strange for me. My dogs also have to stay outside since this house is in no way pet friendly. That has been hard for all of us. Especially when you consider that it is starting to get hot here in the land of perpetual sunshine! But we will get through it, just like we do everything else. That is one of the other reasons the boys and I will be going to Prescott in a few days. It’s a bit cooler and they can come inside with me…


Well I think that this has gotten quite long enough. I’m going to come around and visit you all this evening and hopefully I’ll be able to keep this all up over the next little while before I leave. I have really missed all of you and your friendship.

Song of the day? More Than It Seems by Kutless…. Because for some odd reason this song seems to mirror the feelings of my heart these last few weeks…. Wonderful song.

   Good Evening Xangaland!

I know it’s been longer than I said it would be but I am in the progress of saving everything because my and Ryan’s computers have to be reformatted in the next week… I am doing my very best to keep up and catch up.  I have so much to tell you all but let me just say that Ryan is doing well and has so far passed three of the four tests required during this schooling with a 95%, a 90%, and a 92.5%.  He is really enjoying it and I’m very proud of how well he is doing… A few more days and I should be able to catch up with everyone… In the meantime I went to the dentist today and just had a huge need to share with you all.


I hate the dentist.


So today I went to the dentist for a cleaning. It has been six years since I last went to a dentist. Why you may ask? Well let me share.

I walk in and the hygienist says, “Hi, it’s so nice to see you again!” and although I have been here two times in the last month getting my checkups and medical release for overseas travel I am sure I have not met this particular woman… But my memory is not so great so I let it slide.

She sets me down in the chair and asks me three times in a row if anything in my medical history has changed since the last time I was in. I answered politely each time and was a bit perplexed as to the memory lapse but hey as I said my memory is not so great so I let it slide.

I should have been afraid.

She leans me back and opens my mouth. She grabs the little hook stabber which I hate but every dentist uses so it is not particularly scary…… Until she begins stabbing my gums!!!! Three full out puncturing stabs per tooth front and back. I am MORTIFIED and freaked. I know this is crass but I would rather have a pap smear than have this woman in my mouth. At least I could kick the doctor in the head if that goes bad. I submit that a woman stabbing you in the mouth while you quite literally grin and bear it is the worst and most violating feeling imaginable.

She finally stops comments on how she has drawn blood and rinses out my mouth leaving a nice little puddle of bloody water in the back of my throat that I am forced to swallow since she comes at me immediately with the polishing tool and attacks! It wasn’t so bad so I figure the worst is over.

Once more I was wrong.

So after that horrible violation she pulls out the floss…. Excuse me….. THE ROPE… and proceeds to jam this unusually thick bit of torture paraphernalia down between each and every one of my teeth so quickly and violently that every single one of the spaces between my teeth are bleeding.

We haven’t even begun to discuss how she had to get this stuff out! She jammed it down between two molars first and then “gently” pulled on it a few times and when that didn’t work she set her jaw braced her foot and yanked! So hard that my head actually lifted up off the chair! Holy Cow!!!

Then she comments on how my gums are bleeding “a little” and grabs the water squirter and sucker thingy. She gives three quick little mists and then says, “Oops we’re out of water, oh well.” I should have saved that mouthful of bloody water from before so I could rinse a little…. (Insert sarcastic face here please) She then just runs that hard little plastic sucker, not so gently, along the gums in the front and back of each tooth, pats my shoulder and says she has to write up the report so just hold tight a minute.

In the amazingly uncomfortable silence that comes next, during which I sit there in shock at just how violent that was and how this is the stuff nightmares are made of, I become aware of a cheerful little instruction poster on how to floss.


  1. Take 18 inches of floss and wrap it around your two middle fingers.

  2. Gently insert the floss into the space between two teeth.

  3. Work the floss back and forth.

  4. Gently remove the floss and repeat until all teeth are flossed.

Um and you wonder why it’s been six years.

Song of the day?  Or week at this point? Hurt by Thousand Foot Krutch.  Song title seemed appropriate plus I love the song.


Good Morning Xangaland!

I don’t have time to visit today as I would like to…. however I just wanted to stop by and say thank you to those of you who have kept me in your prayers over this past few weeks… it has been a time of trials….  However today I feel as if my outlook has been brightened…. nothing big just those whispers during prayer that speak of His being there for me always and not allowing fear of any kind to overtake me…. for if He is for us who can be against us?  I feel hopeful and a bit brighter….

I leave this morning for a five day vacation at my parent’s cabin in Prescott, AZ with my best friend Emily and my two boys… We are going to visit and veg and just be for a few days… I anticipate much quiet time with my Bible and some good long philosophical conversations…. I intend to return refreshed, renewed, rejuvenated… and ready to step back into life full force.

It is time to pull myself up by the bootstraps dust off my armor polish my swords and head back into the fray swinging…. and who knows what will happen…. I realized today that the weeks have stretched into months since I’ve felt this need to truly affect my sphere overtake me… and today I resolve to stand up again and fight to find new strategy and new tactics to overcome and press in….

I’ll see you in five days……

In the meantime pray for me my friends and I will pray for you… 

Count on it.

Song for the week?  Thou Art A Sheild For Me.  Why?  Because this song was a favorite of mine as a child and it has affected me in new ways over this last few days….


How are they increase that trouble me,

Many are they that rise up against me.

Many are they that say of my soul,

“There is no help for him in God.”


For Thou, Oh Lord, art a shield for me,

My glory and the lifter of my head.

For Thou, Oh Lord, art a shield for me,

My glory the the lifter of my head.


I will not be afraid of ten thousands of people,

Who set themselves against me round about.

I will not be afraid of ten thousands of people,

Who set themselves against me round about.


I cried to the Lord with my voice,

And He heard me out of His holy hill.

I lay me down and I slept,

I awaked, for the Lord sustained me.



My Dearest Xangaland,

I’m so sorry for this most boring blog.  There is so much to update on.  My thoughts, feelings, pictures, actual events…. I have tickers to rebuild and my computer needs to be wiped and reformatted and those are the things that usually give me purpose and drive…. and yet I find myself with an utter lack of enthusiasm….  This separation has affected me in a much different way than before, instead of making me sad it has made me simply blah, I seem to have just folded in on myself….  It’s such a strange sensation…

I think I just need a few more days to settle in and get my bearings and then I will be back full force and update you on all there is to know….  I’m just not quite myself these days.  Please forgive me my dear friends.

Yours most sincerely,