Having a bit of a crisis!

I just realized that when Ryan and I come back to the states….

Yoda will be 12 and a half….

Gandalf will be almost 8…..

If I could ever get pregnant we could have two or three kids…..

We will have just celebrated out 9th wedding anniversary….

Ryan will just have turned 30….

I will be two months from29…..

All somewhere else…

See?… Crisis, and oh so weird….

Just thought I would share.


My Dearest Xangaland,

I miss you all so desperately. As my life is quickly spinning beyond any control whatsoever I long for the early mornings of sitting quietly with my tea and visiting with you. I miss hearing of your daily routines and your not so daily happenings, your loves, your annoyances, your children, your pets, all the big things and yes all the not so big things. I miss you.

This last two weeks have been full. Of amazing things, happy situations, frustrations, setbacks, news … just altogether full.

First of all I found renters for my house! My Aunt Susan and her family have agreed to rent this house for the entire period of time we are out of the country. I can’t even begin to explain to you how much of a blessing that is just in and of itself. We aren’t charging them what full rent would cost here, just the monthly mortgage payment but it’s only about a 150 dollar a month difference. However when you consider the fact that I am guaranteed to never have any gaps in my rent it is well worth it! Even if we were lucky enough to only have three renters in the three years we would be gone there would have to be a month long gap in between with getting it ready for the next family and that right there is $1000.00 plus whatever the cost of the repairs. Who has that just lying around? Not me! Not to mention she will store some things for me and take care of my plants!! So I’m scratching her back and she’s scratching mine!

It is also such an amazing thing because this was my first house and I love it here so dearly and it breaks my heart a little to leave it. This will also be her first house all her own with no shared walls and she knows me and my heart and will take good care of this old girl that has been, not just my house, but my first true home. I know she’ll love living here as much as I do. Have I even mentioned that her son will be in hog heaven? With a city park literally across the street and a neighborhood full of kids, not to mention the school he will be attending is a top rated school in this city and he’ll be here just long enough to graduate from it completely before they move. What more could a kid want?

They are also getting ready to buy my car. I have a little 1995 Mercury Tracer that we can’t take with us to Germany and we were just getting ready to put it on the market and lo and behold it just so happens to be just what they were looking for and in the right price range too.

So all in all the two huge things left that have really been worrying me lately are now taken care of. In a wonderful way! Because not only do I have relief but my Aunt and her family, who sorely deserve a break, will be getting their first house and a new car in the space of one months time. God has truly had his hand in this! We are so excited.

Now the bad news about all of this. Well it’s not really bad news but… well you’ll see. They are renting an apartment at this time. Their lease expires on April 30th so the timing is actually perfect as Ryan leaves for tech school on the 25th of April. It just means that this last three weeks Ryan is here will be consumed by moving and packing… We’re going to be so very busy for the next few weeks. But really this is a blessing too. I can put away two months worth of rent into an emergency fund for my parents (who will be our stand in landlords while we are overseas) in case there are any repairs needed while we are away. This takes a huge financial pressure off of us while we are in Europe and will allow us to actually travel.

So I’m getting ready to move out of my home and into my parent’s house again. I never thought that the saying “They always come back.” Would apply to me but in truth this is the second time I’ve gone to live with them since I’ve been married! LOL I’ll have my own room with a TV and computer and I really don’t anticipate that two months to be very busy. My whole house will be packed up and in storage and I’ll just be waiting for the Air Force to take the next step, which they won’t until Ryan is home. So I’ll be on here a lot and making the baby blankets that I have on the docket at the moment, in hopes to get them all off before the move…

I will try to come by as often as I can…. I truly do miss all of you terribly. In a few weeks time though you may just be sick of me!

I’m not looking forward to being alone again….. And though it sounds like being with my family would be easier I don’t think so…. I’m a very solitary creature with a very habitual routine… I’m going to miss having a home to care for while he’s away…. But I’ve survived worse and I’ll survive this.

Good bye for now Xangaland.


I had to stop on in and share this quote with you from one of my favorite women in fiction of all time…

Mrs. Amelia Peabody Emerson

“I hope I number patience among my virtues, but shilly-shallying, when nothing is to be gained by the delay, is not a virtue.”


Sounds an awful lot like me.

Busy as all get out but missing you all.


Good Morning Xangaland!

I’m just coming by to let you all know that I may not be here for the next week or so…. Things are picking up and getting super busy… It’s going to be pretty bad for this next few weeks up until Ryan leaves for Tech school because this is everybodies chance to spend time with him and really to say good bye.  After tech school we will only be here for another week or so and then it will be a mad rush to get everything done before we get on a plane.

So my days are booked and sometimes double booked for the next two weeks! 

I may have time to put up a quick post once in a while to tell you all what’s going on but I highly doubt I’ll have time to visit…. Just know that I try to read on my back page at least once a day and try to keep up with what is going on in your lives….

Take care all  and don’t forget me…



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Good Afternoon Xangaland! 

I think I’m going to start a dream series… last night was another doozy… but not in a super bad way, just weird…

I was getting ready to leave for Germany and realized that the movers had misplaced all of my underwear for the trip.  I had NONE and for some reason I couldn’t buy any.  The Base Commander keep telling me to just get on the plane, because no one would know if I had clean underwear or not, and if I didn’t get on the plane my husbands career would be in jeopardy.  I just couldn’t do it though.  You see my father is a fireman and it has been drilled into us to not leave the house without clean underwear, just in case!!!  lol 

So I think I may go to Walmart tonight and buy about a hundred pair just to be safe… they couldn’t possibly lose them all right?  Just kidding….. you hope….

So it is another beautiful day in the land of perpetual sunshine!  (As my Aunt Sue would say)  I believe this makes day 143 of our very own draught.  However we are promised rain here in the Valley of the Sun on Saturday and Sunday.  So we shall see.

Today Ryan went before the oral board for the squadron B.O.B award but I haven’t heard anything from him today and in any case we won’t know anything until Monday.  He was so frazzled last night because he only found out yesterday that he had to go before the board today.  He was under the impression that he would have a week or so…..

Something happened yesterday that for some reason makes Germany a blinding reality.  We got an email… from our very own sponsor.  I don’t remember his name I’ll have to ask Ryan to let me read it again (it’s in his work mail).  Any way, this guy wrote us yesterday to tell us how excited he was to be our sponsor and to confirm that we would be arriving in July, and to ask us for a bunch of information so he could begin making arrangements for transportation and housing…. eeekk… I can’t even begin to explain why that made it so real but somehow it just does….  My husband and I will live in a foreign country in 4 months…

On a lighter happier note!  I think I am about to meet my very first Xanga friend!!!  Her name is Michelle and she and I have talked on here for about a year now.  She is another Air Force wife and is in the process of moving out to their first duty station, Edwards AFB in California!  She is driving through here and she and I are going to meet for dinner!  I’m so excited!!!  I’ll have to let you know how it all goes!

Well I better get out of here… I want to come around and visit really quick.  Then I have a few essays left to write for a christian website and they are due today!  Then I have to clean house a bit, make about 10 blankets, draw a sketch for something at church… ect. ect. ect…  lol  You know how it goes!

Have a wonderful day Xangaland!



Okay everyone is visited!

I also stuck a ticker up top just under my banner that gives you the countdown to when we report for duty in Germany.  We will probably be leaving the states earlier than that but the 20th of July is the day Ryan actually has to start work.  Our port call date looks like it will be somewhere between the 3rd and 7th of July.



Good Morning Xangaland!

Well I’m back, the beast is up and running and we are good to go!  Although I don’t know how much time I’ll have on here over the next couple of weeks. 

Thank you so much for your prayers.  Ryan tested for Technical sergeant yesterday and said that he felt pretty good about it but we won’t know anything until July at the earliest… However the oral board he went before on Tuesday was a success!  HE WON!!!

He won the Best Of the Best award for A.G.E. (His current career field) and will be going before another board for the squadron BOB in about a weeks time.

The official orders for Germany are in and all the paperwork required of us is in and now we await our R.I.P. sheet which will have all the codes on it telling us how much storage we will be allotted, how much weight we can take, what kind of crates we need to buy for the dogs, ect.  So once again in the midst of this storm of activity we sit and wait….

We are both really okay with this move and I think we are handling it just fine… but tell that to my brain please.  You see I don’t fret and stress about it during the day because honestly what would be the point?  I’m trying to give it to God daily (and trust me the daily part is necessary)  but at night my anxiety comes out.  I have been having the mother of all nightmares every night.  From a serial killer stalking me through cheesy linoleum hallways to this doozy last night where Ryan and I weren’t just moving to Germany we were both soldiers going to war and I had babies and I was so scared but willing to do my part.  And my brother in law was so mad at the military that he joined to take my place and then my mother in law hated me because I was taking both of her sons away!  (would never happen)  Crazy huh?  So apparently I’m a bit stressed…. what do you think?

Nothing else really going on around here and at the same time I feel as if I haven’t had a moment to sit still in for ages…. 

I’m going to try to get around to everyone and visit!

Song of the day? Love is a Movement by Switchfoot


 P.S.  I know this is so scatterbrained but honestly, today I just don’t have the fortitude to go back through and make it coherent so please forgive me.

P.S.S.  Please excuse my site being all wiggy… my image hosting site is having issues!  Which means all of you I have done banners for, if they aren’t working now they should be working soon….



Good Morning Xangaland!

I’m almost back… just a few more things to do to this beast and we should be good to go… I have just a moment online before I go do them but I just wanted to update you and of course leave you with a chuckle…

My dad sent this to me and my uncle sent it to him… My dad says it had him in tears he was laughing so hard and I must admit it had me the same way… I was definitely in tears (though I’m not sure if it was from the joke or chocking on my bagel!) I think you’ll enjoy it!  So I’m off to finish rewiring this thing and I’ll hopefully be back full tilt tomorrow!




This was submitted by a guy who bought a “pocket Taser”, for his wife
for their anniversary.

Last weekend I saw something at Larry’s Pistol & Pawn Shop that sparked
my interest. The occasion was our 22nd anniversary and I was looking for
a little something extra for my wife Toni. What I came across was a
100,000-volt, pocket/purse-sized taser. The effects of the taser were
suppose to be short lived, with no long-term adverse affect on your
assailant, allowing her adequate time to retreat to safety…. WAY TOO

Long story short, I bought the device and brought it home. I loaded two
triple-a batteries in the darn thing and pushed the button. Nothing! I
was disappointed. I learned, however, that if I pushed the button AND
pressed it against a metal surface at the same time; I’d get the blue
arch of electricity darting back and forth between the prongs.

Unfortunately, I have yet to explain to Toni what that burn spot is on
the face of her microwave.

Okay, so I was home alone with this new toy, thinking to myself that it
couldn’t be all that bad with only two triple-a batteries, right?!!!

There I sat in my recliner, my cat Gracie looking on intently (trusting
little soul) while I was reading the directions and thinking that I
really needed to try this thing out on a flesh & blood moving target.

I must admit I thought about zapping Gracie (for a fraction of a second)
and thought better of it. She is such a sweet cat. But, if I was going
to give this thing to my wife to protect herself against a mugger, I did
want some assurance that it would work as advertised. Am I wrong?

So, there I sat in a pair of shorts and a tank top with my reading
glasses perched delicately on the bridge of my nose, directions in one
hand, taser in another. The directions said that a one-second burst
would shock and disorient your assailant; a two-second burst was
supposed to cause muscle
spasms and a major loss of bodily control; a three-second burst would
purportedly make your assailant flop on the ground like a fish out of
water. Any burst longer than three seconds would be wasting the

All the while I’m looking at this little device measuring about 5″ long,
less than 3/4 inch in circumference; pretty cute really and loaded with
two itsy, bitsy triple-a batteries, thinking to myself, “no possible

What happened next is almost beyond description, but I’ll do my

I’m sitting there alone, Gracie looking on with her head cocked to one
side as to say, “don’t do it master,” reasoning that a one-second burst
from such a tiny little ole thing couldn’t hurt all that bad.. I decided
to give myself a one-second burst just for the heck of it. I touched the
prongs to
my naked thigh, pushed the button, and


I’m pretty sure Jessie Ventura ran in through the side door, picked me
up in the recliner, then body slammed us both on the carpet, over and
over and over again. I vaguely recall waking up on my side in the fetal
position, with tears in my eyes, body soaking wet, both nipples on fire,
nowhere to be found, with my left arm tucked under my body in the oddest
position, and tingling in my legs. The cat was standing over me making
meowing sounds I had never heard before, licking my face, undoubtedly
thinking to herself, “do it again, do it again!”

Note: If you ever feel compelled to “mug” yourself with a taser, one
note of caution: there is no such thing as a one-second burst when you
zap yourself. You will not let go of that thing until it is dislodged
from your hand by a violent thrashing about on the floor. A three
second burst would be considered conservative.

A minute or so later (I can’t be sure, as time was a relative thing
at that point), collected my wits (what little I had left), sat up and
surveyed the landscape. My bent reading glasses were on the mantel of
the fireplace. How did they up get there???

My triceps, right thigh and both nipples were still twitching. My face
felt like it had been shot up with Novocain, and my bottom lip weighed
88 lbs.

I’m still looking for my testicles? I’m offering a significant reward
for their safe return.


Just one more giggle.

You Have a Choleric Temperament

You are a person of great enthusiasm – easily excited by many things.
Unsatisfied by the ordinary, you are reaching for an epic, extraordinary life.
You want the best. The best life. The best love. The best reputation.

You posses a sharp and keen intellect. Your mind is your primary weapon.
Strong willed, nothing can keep you down. Your energy can break down any wall.
You’re an instantly passionate person – and this passion gives you an intoxicating power over others.

At your worst, you are a narcissist. Full of yourself and even proud of your faults.
Stubborn and opinionated, you know what you think is right. End of discussion.
A bit of a misanthrope, you often see others as weak, ignorant, and inferior.


Well You think?  All of it is so true except for the last part of course.  I’m never wrong end of disscussion.  LOL


I’m giggling like a mad fool can you tell?


And on that note have a good day!



Oh joy…

Looks like it may be a few more days than I hoped!

Everyone take care.



Good Morning Xangaland!

Well looks like I really won’t be around much today.  I just tried to go onto my computer and check my email and it crashed…. just rolled over and died… poor SheLobb!  LOL

I’m writing to you from my husbands computer and I’ll try to do my emails from here but most of my day and maybe tomorrow will be taken up trying to fix the beast.  This one is just not the same, it is missing MY programs, MY saved pictures and that comfortable homey feeling!

In the meantime please keep Ryan in your prayers if you think about it.  He has a oral board tomorrow to go through for a B.O.B. award and then he tests for technical sergeant on Wednesday.  Busy week for us both. 

Talk to you all soon.



Good Morning Xangaland!

Sorry I never got back yesterday!  Busy day!!  The groomer was a huge success!  Gandalf is still shedding a little but they say that happens for the first two days after grooming because of the stress and excitement.  However he looks like he lost 10 pounds and his coat is all shiny and soft!  I’m excited about this.


Yoda of course looks ten years younger!  We had them do a nice summer cut so his hair is very short but with a big slobbery brother like Gandalf this is for the best!!


(Sigh) My babies…..


Today I have to run over to my mom’s house to help her with some things on the computer.  Then I’m here catching up on a thousand little things.  What’s new these days? 

I know that my site has become boring this last few weeks but please bear with me…  I am going to have increasing amounts of things that will just consume my days for the next few months but I’m trying desperately to hang on to all of you.  When I’m living in Germany and my world is upside down all of you will be exactly the same and I have a sneaking suspicion I’m going to need that in my life.  So give me a few months to move and all will be back to normal. 

Hey I discovered something so disturbing yesterday!  I must be getting old!  I have never once in all my 25 years been able to touch my nose with my tongue.  It’s hereditary you aren’t supposed to develop the talent.  I was in the shower yesterday and water was running off my nose and I just stuck my tongue out, who knows why, and all the sudden boom I touched my nose!!!!!!!!  I freaked and walked around doing it all day just to make sure it wasn’t a freak accident.  Do you have any idea how devastated I am?  Because my tongue didn’t get longer so you know what that means right?

My nose must have…. sigh….