Hey everyone I am reposting this a little as some of you don’t know what I was talking about when I said I had a surgery date. It has been awhile since I said anything. Here you go……
I am 24 and have the following problems: PCOS, hypertension (high blood pressure), sleep apnea, psuedo tumor cerebri, infertility, cronic heartburn, hypothyrodism, and a few other minor problems.
As a result of all these things I am fat. I don’t mean 15 pound over weight or even 50 pounds, I mean 130 pounds over weight. I have been told that I will never lose the weight without treatment of these problems. The problem is they have treated each one but with everything else that is wrong they can’t pinpoint one thing at a time to treat because they can’t tell if things are working. I have also been told that without treatment I could be blind by 35, or even die of a heart attack in the next few years, be diabetic by 30, and never have children to name a few things.
So I oppted for the treatments…. Diets, pills, creams, hormones, tests, poking and prodding, xrays, catscans, (almost but thank God not spinal taps), endless bloodtests, and through it all two miscarrages. These health problems have been marching steadily forward since I was about 15 but in the last four years (most of my married life) they are really taking over. So after four years of some truly harsh and sadly hopless treatments my doctors have decided that I am a perfect canadate for gastric bypass surgery.
When this surgery was suggested it was not some light and easy decision to make for me. I prayed studied and ended up in six months of classes and seminars. I will go through months of excrutiating pain while my body heals and relearns its functions. I will spend the rest of my life eating 1/2 of a cup of food five times a day. Just to illistrate, 1/2 a cup is one of those little apple sauce cups. It is a major physical, mental, and lifestyle change that I will have to work on every day for the rest of my life.
But I have exhausted all of the other options open to me and none have so much as touched a problem let alone resolved it. So I am going to have this major surgery, go through this pain, and God willing come out the other side healthy, happy, able to bear children, and be a good and active mother. But that will still take years. I figured out that if I have my surgery in December I may be holding a baby in my arms as early as January of 2007.
They have told me that this will litarally be my miricle. That it will enable me to feel 24 instead of 44. It will be my new lease on life. So although it will be hard and it will deffinatly involve sacrifice I think some things are worth it. Like being a mother, a good wife, having energy, being young…. The list goes on and on. So that is what I will be doing in about a month. I’m not even nervous anymore. It took so long with the insurence that now its just “Get it over with so I can get on with my new Life!” You know what I mean? Talk to you all later.