Hey everyone, I can only sit here for a few minutes before it starts to hurt but I just wanted to say thank you all so much for all your thoughts and prayers.  Keep checking with my hubby if you want more updates and I hope to see you all soon.  Happy new year.  May this new year be better than any you have had before.  See you in 2005 and oh by the way Eight_New_Beginning ……  GOOD LUCK!!!!!!

Hi all.  Fallen is well and happy.  She sends her love through cyberspace to each and every one of you.  There is a new update on my site.  This is HisGateKeeper in case you were wondering.  See ya on the flip side.


Hi all, this is Fallen’s husband HisGateKeeper.  We are finally home now.  You can now start looking on my site for all current updates on Fallen’s condition.  Thank you and I’ll see you there.

P.S. check out her ticker at the bottom.  I updated it for her.  She’s already losing weight

Hello everyone,
I promised that I would write a post right before I went into the hospital so everyone would have the latest information.  For those of you who do not know why I will be going into the hospital tomorrow I have rewritten an old post about my surgery from a while back right below this.  It explaines what health problems I have, what surgery I am having and why.   So here it is and I will see you at the bottom.

                  ******SURGERY POST******

I am 24 and have the following problems: PCOS, hypertension (high blood pressure), sleep apnea, psuedo tumor cerebri, infertility, cronic heartburn, hypothyrodism, and a few other minor problems. 

As a result of all these things I am fat.  I don’t mean 15 pounds over weight or even 50 pounds, I mean 130 pounds over weight.  I have been told that I will never lose the weight without treatment of these problems.  The problem is they have treated each one but with everything else that is wrong they can’t pinpoint one thing at a time to treat because they can’t tell if things are working.  I have also been told that without treatment I could be blind by 35, or even die of a heart attack in the next few years, be diabetic by 30, and never have children to name a few things. 

So I oppted for the treatments…. Diets, pills, creams, hormones, tests, poking and prodding, xrays, catscans, (almost but thank God not spinal taps), endless bloodtests, and through it all two miscarrages.  These health problems have been marching steadily forward since I was about 15 but in the last four years (most of my married life) they are really taking over.   So after four years of some truly harsh and sadly hopless treatments my doctors have decided that I am a perfect candidate for gastric bypass surgery. 

When this surgery was suggested it was not some light and easy decision to make for me.  I prayed studied and ended up in six months of classes and seminars.  I will go through months of excrutiating pain while my body heals and relearns its functions.  I will spend the rest of my life eating 1/2 of a cup of food five times a day.  Just to illistrate, 1/2 a cup is one of those little apple sauce cups. It is a major physical, mental, and lifestyle change that I will have to work on every day for the rest of my life. 

But I have exhausted all of the other options open to me and none have so much as touched a problem let alone resolved it.  So I am going to have this major surgery, go through this pain, and God willing come out the other side healthy, happy, able to bear children, and be a good and active mother.  But that will still take years.  I figured out that if I have my surgery in December I may be holding a baby in my arms as early as January of 2007.

They have told me that this will litarally be my miricle.  That it will enable me to feel 24 instead of 44.  It will be my new lease on life.  So although it will be hard and it will deffinatly involve sacrifice I think some things are worth it.  Like being a mother, a good wife, having energy, being young…. The list goes on and on.  So that is what I will be doing tomorrow morning.  I am excited about this surgery.  For it will be my new beginning!


Okay so now that is over,  I will be going in to St. Luke’s Hospital here in Phoenix, AZ tomorrow at the crack of dawn or as other people call it 5:30am MT .  I will then be checking in and  will be taken into the OR at 7:30am for the prep and actual surgery.  I should be out of surgery at about 9:00am and in an actual room somewhere around 11:00am.  I should be released from the hospital sometime Tuesday afternoon and will then be home for about six weeks recovering.  However I will be up and around almost immediatly on Doctor’s orders. 

Please keep my family and myself in your prayers.  You should be able to get updates on my Aunt’s site  www.xanga.com/sulimb while I am in the hospital.  And when I am home my husband will be updating on his new site www.xanga.com/HisGatekeeper .  Thank you so much for being such great friends to me.  I can’t wait to be back and start counting down on my new ticker at the bottom.

Everyone have a safe and wonderful next couple of days.  Take care and I will be back as soon as I can.  Who knows I may be so bored I will just physically write some more installments to my story while I am down and out to type when I feel up to it.

I just wanted to thank you all for your overwhelming support for my husband.  He so appreciated the comments you all left on his site.  I’m sure he would come and tell you himself if I ever got off the compurter and let him.  I promise I will soon. 

I just wanted to wish everyone a Merry Christmas I can’t believe it is here already!!!!   Everyone take care and be safe.  Thank you for your friendship through all of this.  I  look forward to many good times with you too.  I am overwhelmed that putting together something as simple as a web journal could have drawn me so much closer to the people that were already in my life but also to bring me friends that support me through thick and thin (although thin is yet to come)  I am so thankful.  May God bless you and be with you all.

Hi everyone,  I know it has been a while but I have been a little preocupied.    My husband is home and it is so good to have him here.   We have been getting ready for Christmas, shopping, going over my surgery stuff, and of course cuddling!!!!!   It is so good to have a helping hand and brain as mine is completely fuzzy due to full liquid diet for the last four days.

We got some really good news yesterday.  I am going to be having the laproscopic (SP?) surgery instead of the open.  This is really good as it will be a shorter external healing, shorter hospital stay, shorter surgery, and a lot less trauma to my body.  They said the recovery time is the same but a lot less painful!!!!!    This is always a good thing.

It has been a wonderful few days.  Just being together has been so comfortable.  The dogs are going nuts and they panick now every time he steps outside.  You should have seen them when he walked in the door!  Here is a picture of them together.

I hope everyone has a wonderful Christmas and New Years, I may not be on much until then as we are busy every day from now until the surgery.  Everyone be careful and have fun, and may God hold you and keep you and make his face to shine upon you. 

PS.  My husband has a site now.   Here is the link http://www.xanga.com/HisGatekeeper  if you can drop by and leave a comment that would be wonderful.  He will be updating on my surgery and recovery while I am gone.  I will talk to all of you soon.


My husband is flying in tonight. 

I have to be at the airport in about three hours.  I am so excited and a little bit anxious.  He has been gone for over four months and that in reality is a very long time.  It always takes a little time to get used to haveing that person around you again, but I sure don’t think its going to be a problem.

I may not be around much the next couple of days (or I may who knows)  but know that I am keeping you all in my thoughts and prayers.  I will update before my surgery so you have the details.  Hope everyone has a wonderful Christmas.