Sorry everyone, I know it has been a few days.  I have been helping my family in planning my grandfathers memorial service.  I think it is going to be really wonderful though sad.  It will be tomorrow morning at 10am.  We did these wonderful picture boards that encompass my grandfathers life in about 30 pictures and then one really big picture of just his face and he is laughing.  Just like him.  I think he would be really pleased. 


I am doing really good I think.  Under the circumstances of course.   I got this beautiful pedistal planter and filled it with pansies for my grandpa.  It will be up front for the funeral tomorrow.  I think that tomorrow it is really going to hit me.  I know in my head he is dead but I keep wanting to call him and say, ‘Papa it’s so cool how everyone is together for you.  Look how much you are loved.  Isn’t it amazing? ‘ and I can’t.  My heart aches now but it will be those moments like the one I had Saturday that get me.  I went out to my shed to find a gravey boat and there is this gigantic light up wire snowman my grandfather gave me in June.  He said he knew we were just starting out with Christmas decorations and thought I would like to have it.  He told me and I quote…..’ I don’t think I will be decorating for another Christmas.’  Needless to say I burst into tears.  But overall I think I will be okay.  I’m just grieving.


Thank you all so much for the support and I promise in a few days I will catch up.  In the meantime I bought a digital camera and tried out the photoshop on my dogs so here are two new pics.  I will probably post after the funeral tomorrow but we’ll see………. God give me strength.  Talk to you all later.  Thank you again. 
Courtney



My boys being really cute!



Really weird photoshop effect but I kind of like it except for the creepy eyes!

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Hi everyone.  Our Thanksgiving was good but a little sober.  We had dinner on Thursday at my cousins house about an hour away and it was good.  It was sad but not one person from four generations was missing.  My grandma came and I think it was good for her to be with all the family.  Here are some pictures………



This is just a group shot my cousins are all giants at 7 feet or a hair under.



This is my grandma.  She looks so sad.


Then on Saturday we did another Thanksgiving at my house and it went really well.  Everyone had a lot of fun talking about grandpa and telling stories.  Here are some pictures of that one too…….



My mom, her sister, and her mother.



Me with my family-in-law!



My mom goofing off with my uncle Terry.


For those of you who want to see them.  These are my boys, the Wizards… Yoda is the little ol man and Ganlalf is the beast….



My babies.



Gandalf is a newfoundland mix and weight 110 pounds!



Yoda in his new sweater.  What do you think Kritijo? 😉


Everything went really well.  I think us all being together these last couple of days was very healing.  Thank you all for your thoughts and prayers.  My family will be having a memorial service for my grandpa on Tuesday and his obituary will be in the paper tomorrow.  Here are a few pictures of my grandfather the day he went into surgery.   He spent those last few moments laughing and goofing off with his family.  He was a wonderful man……



Wearing his cap french style.



Pope style.



My Grandfather.


Hope everyone had a great Thanksgiving.  Thank you for your thoughts and prayers.  It means a lot to all of us. 

At 7:09pm I got a phone call telling me that my grandfather was having problems.  He had never woken up and his blood pressure was dropping his surgeon was back and they were going to take him back in.  They told me to take a quick shower and be ready, they would call me when they got to the hospital and let me know if I needed to come.  At 7:48pm my phone rang I thought they were calling me to come to the hospital…… But they called to tell me we had lost him.  Sometime before that phone call he flatlined and it was over.  I have lost my grandfather.


He was 83years old.  He lived a good full life.  He is survived by two sons and a wonderful wife.  And a family that stretches on.  He leaves an incredible legacy behind.  Us.  He has four generations that knew him and loved him and that through his prayers and example were all saved.  He died knowing that tonight all his questions would be answered, he would see Jesus face to face, and every member of his family was going to be with him one day.  He went with dignity still intact, in his sleep with no pain, and with the love of his family all around him. 


Thank you so much for all your thoughts and prayers and I just ask that you continue to pray for us, his family.  Because our grief is not for him, he is happier than he has ever been now, our grief is for us, for our loss.  I am having a really hard time but I do know this.  Every spring no matter where I am or what I am doing I will plant pansies for him. (For those of you who didn’t read the previous posts, before he went in to surgery I said I would bring him flowers when they let me and he asked me to bring pansies because they were his favorite flower.  I never knew that. )  So I will plant pansies for him.   


So tomorrow we are having a big thanksgiving with that side of the family and we are going to mourn him but give thanks for the life he led and how quick and painless his death was.  We will give thanks that he died happy, knowing his family was all around us.  We will give thanks that we had an oppertunity to say goodbye, and that we will have the oppertunity to see him again in heaven. 


I love you grandpa.  Thank you for everything, every little thing.  You are my hero.  Godspeed.

I just got word that my grandfather is out of the bypass part of his surgery and his heart has been restarted and is pumping on its own.  He has about 45 minutes of surgery left but things are looking good.  Thank you all for your prayers, I just ask that you continue to pray for a speedy recovery and I will update as I get them. 


~EDIT~


I just got the phone call that my grandfather has come out of the surgery.  It was a sucsess!  The doctor was pleased.  He was able to repair the valves instead of replacing them and the bypass was a sucsess.  They said there was a lot of damage to his heart from all his heart attacks wich came as a suprise as we didn’t know about any!  So it was a really good thing that this happened when it did because if this had been put off until after the holidays he would have been in very real danger of having a fatal heart attack.  As my grandfather said, God holds us all in the hollow of his hand.  He knows what is best. 


He is going to have a very long recovery and it will be a very hard road,  but that he will recover to the point where he will stop having pain, bad circulation, and altitude sickness….among other things.  So we begin another journey one that I would appreciate a continuation of your prayers for, but this journey will be a celebration of a life reclaimed. 


Thank you so much for your thoughts and prayers through this very long day.  Happy Thanksgiving!!!!

Today I have a request.  Please pray for my grandfather, Don Jones. Today he went in to a heart surgeon to have an angeogram.  He has now know for a few weeks that two valves in his heart were leaking.  Surgery was recommended but due to his health his chances were less than prefered.  He went in today to have this test and discuss options.  At 2pm the call went out…. He has been admitted to the ICU.  He is scheduled for an emergency triple bypass and valve replacement at 9am MT tomorrow morning (Wednesday the 24th).  They told us that in the three arteries that they will be bypassing he has 80% blockage in one, 90% in the second, and 100% in the third.  This will of course affect his chances of surviving the surgery. 


It is so very hard to comprehend that we might lose this man who has been a source of great wisdom and no less than a mentor to all in his family.  We love him so dearly and pray that God’s will be done in this. 


I just ask that you would add your prayers for him to those who are already doing so.  Pray for this man that if it is his time to go it will be quick and painless but if we are allowed to have him for a little longer that his recovery be swift and complete.  Pray for his family that we would have the strength to accept any outcome and the glue to hold us together through whatever may come.  But above all that God’s will be done in all. 


We all went to the hospital tonight and spoke with him and it was very hard.  My grandfather said goodbye to me.  He took my hand and said that he was proud of me.  Of who I had become.  Of my marriage and my faith.  He kissed my hand and said that no matter what to remember that I have always been in his prayers and that he loves me.  He said similar things to both my sisters, my mother and my father. 


It was torture to say goodbye to someone whom I don’t want to believe will be gone soon.  I had a really hard time sitting there and smiling at this man who I love so dearly and hearing him speak to me as if it would be the last time.  I even made a stupid joke.  I told him that he was just going in to have his heart refubished and sometimes a refurbished part was better than an original.  It feels like a dumb thing to say if it was the last time I spoke to him. 


Then he asked something that shocked me.  I told him I would bring him flowers when they would let me and he asked for potted pansies because they were his favorite flowers.  I didn’t know that.  There are so many things I don’t know.  God I don’t want him to die…. but your will be done. 


But as grandpa reminded us all God works for those who love the Lord and he has us all in the hollow of his hand.  Nothing will happen that we can’t handle. 


“1 I will lift up my eyes to the hills from whence comes my help?  2 My help comes from the Lord, who made heaven and earth.  3 He will not allow your foot to be moved, He who keeps you will not slumber.  4 Behold, He who keeps Israel shall neither slumber nor sleep.  5 The Lord is your keeper, the Lord is your shade at your right hand.  6 The sun shall not strike you by day, nor the moon by night.  7 The Lord shall preserve you from all evil, He shall preserve your soul,  8  The Lord shall preserve your going out and your coming in from this time forth, and even forevermore.”  Psalms 121 


Things I am thankful for…


My faith, my family, long conversations, my husband, my dogs, life, sunshine, love, my home, flowers, saying hello, the chance to say goodbye, life lived in full, my grandpa asking me to bring him pansies, the chance to be together for the holidays even when I’m dumb enough to complain about all the work, white puffy clouds,  cold winter days, warm spring nights, five minutes when all you have to do is listen to crickets, so many other things I couldn’t write them all, the fact that there are so many other things…….


These are the words to the song I am listening to tonight.  I just had to post them because they are so appropriate for what I am going through right now.


  Oh great God
Be small enough
To hear me now
There were times when I was crying
From the dark of Daniel’s den
I had asked you once or twice
If you would part the sea again
Tonight I do not need a
Fiery pillar in the sky
Just want to know you’re gonna
Hold me if I start to cry

Oh great God
Be small enough to hear me now
Oh great God
Be close enough to feel you now
(Oh great god be close to me)
There have been moments when I could not face
Goliath on my own
And how could I forget we marched
Around our share of Jerichos
But I will not be setting out
A fleece for you tonight
Just wanna know that everything will be alright
Oh great god be close enough to feel me now

All praise and all the honor be
To the god of ancient mysteries
Whose every sign and wonder
Turn the pages of our history
But tonight my heart is heavy
And I cannot keep from whispering this prayer
Are you there?

And I know you could leave writing
On the wall that’s just for me
Or send wisdom while I’m sleeping
Like in Solomon’s sweet dreams
But I don’t need the strength of Sampson
Or a chariot in the end
Just wanna know that you still know how many
Hairs are on my head
Oh great God (Are you small enough)
Be small enough to hear
Me now


This is a little out of tone with the rest of this post but my husband sent me this ecard and it made me laugh.  He didn’t yet know what was going on and it was just so cute I can’t resist putting it here.  So here is the link. 


http://www.talkingbuddy.com

I had a weird and I have to admit kind of funny day.  I got up and was supposed to do the rest of my yardwork but I didn’t want to.  So I justified it by saying I would finish up my shopping and do the rest of the yardwork tomorrow.  HEHEHE(Everyone is saying lately that my laughter has started to sound like an evil elf….weird… so I guess that’s what this is.)  So I’m running around getting ready to leave and I’m trying to put my socks on…. I had one leg up got it caught in my pants lost my balance and did a face plant!!!!!  Thank goodness I’m well padded, I bounce, if I had been thin I think I would have broken something.  So now I’m flustered, I look around for my shoes, can’t find them so I slip on my slippers and I take out the trash get in my car and go….. I run a few errands then on my way back to my car I realize I still have my slippers on.  Not my shoes I never changed.  At this point I don’t care so I go to the grocery store and low and behold….. I FORGOT MY LIST AGAIN!!!!…..  I am so utterly flustered by this point that I jump back in my car go to Petco and buy some new fish and yes finally a sweater for my dog!!!!!  Thanks for the idea Kritijo it is red with black diamonds on the back I think it will look really good on him as he is salt and pepper..  Then I came home went to dinner with my sister and had ice cream.  All I might add while continuing to wear my slippers! Anyway just wanted to share this little adventure with you.  Hope it makes you laugh….


PS this movie was on TV and for some reason I could not turn it off.  Really weird!!!